Lambat Lagi Ke?

I've been waiting for the NCBL to start since UBSA's abrupt exit in the playoffs last year. Not playing in any tourneys prior to this year's NCBL was sad, and it made me feel sad, but it was also tough, and it made me tougher. I think.

Up until a month or so ago, I was hyped up to play but the organizers have been delaying the start of the league. Am pretty sure the date got pushed in front (at the last minute, not to forget) around 3 times before today. Huhu. Now I'm just sad because I've lost all 'hype'. Sigh. Kang aku turun Cheras ball macam main petang je kang..

Tolong Tutup Lampu

I hate it when people get too caught up when I let them hear my songs. This has happened quite often, and it's quite annoying because it feels like they take the songs too seriously. The worse is when people think that I wrote the song specifically for them, even though i'm just doing this a hobby. Siap emo dengan aku lak. Sakai. Anyways, this is the latest song I did. Don't forget to push the CC button under the video for the lyrics aite.

Dude

If people around me say that I'm a good person, but I become insecure, spiteful, stupid, insensitive, lifeless, egoistic and pathetic when I come into extended contact with you, does that mean you bring out the worst in me? No, I'm not saying you're a bad person. Quite the contrary, really. But I just think that the more time I spend with you, the more mistakes I'll do and it's just a waste of time.

Again, please understand that I'm not saying any of this is your fault. It's not you, it's me. Even if you don't do anything to me, I still become a horrible person when I'm with you and I don't want that. I hate you for it (spiteful sungguh), but I don't feel like doing anything about it. Not worth the effort. I don't even feel like I want to see you anymore. So please don't get emo if I don't reply your messages or calls after this. I just think that I would slowly become a completely pathetic person if I keep on being friends with you. So, hurm, ciao.

Oh, I Love My Loves!

Of the top of my head, the three worldly things that I love the most are my family, basketball and music. Right now, I'm feeling happy about all three. Music's been surprisingly pleasant for me ever since I started writing, and it's awesome.

One thing about my recordings now,I've been figuring out cheap ways of getting better audio recording for my songs. Right now, my process of recording a song still costs next to nothing but the audio quality has improved by leaps and bounds since my first rap session. The video below explains how I record the vocals for the song, while I add in the music later in Windows Movie Maker by combining the video of me rapping (with little or no music) with the mp3 for the instrumental track. Will do this for my future vids until I find other cheap ways that produce better results.

Layan.

Merosakkan lagu Yuna - Penakut

Here's the lyrics to the song. Please don't read too much into what i write, because you never know if i'm really talking about you. Anyways;

Tak semua kau rancang akan berlaku

Aku cuma nakkan kita ada masa depan

Tapi sayangnya semua hanya tinggal rancangan
Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku

Kau terlalu selamba keluarkan kata-kata

Kenapa? Terlalu mudah engkau surrender?
Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta

Memang cinta buta, bukan ke aku dah kata

Walau buta tapi cinta kita sempurna
Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja

Takkan kau sanggup hilangkan semua?

Takkan kau sanggup tinggalkan semua?

Chorus
Oh ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya (memang pun)
Oh ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku (aku faham)
Oh ini tidak adil
Untuk kau bertanya jika ku mencintaimu juga

Tidak adil tidak adil baginya

Biarpun banyak beban ada kat depan

Aku tak mengaku kalah, masih ada harapan

Sebab ingatan kita waktu zaman dulu

Takkan nak persiakan apa kita dah lalu

Mungkin lebih baik kalau kita duduk dulu

Bawa bincang perlahan, i will listen to you

Tapi tolong jangan bila kita muka-ke-muka

Kau mintak izin pergi, bukak cerita sama

Kau tak pernah cuba memahami aku

Sumpah tak tipu memang aku dah cuba

Tapi engkau yang tak sabar untuk tunggu aku belajar
Cinta kau ucap tak pernah engkau tunjuk
Bukannya tak pernah tapi engkau yang tak nampak

Engkau yang tak faham cara-cara aku sayang

Dan bila tiba saat ku kehilangan

Hilangkan apa yang ada masa dulu

Aku masih ada tapi engkau yang celaru
Beban yang tak pernah kau cuba ringankan

Aku merayu, mulai saat ini

Apa jua beratnya di hati tolonglah berkongsi

Ulang Chorus
Kau bukan milikku

Aku faham perasaan kau celaru

Hubungan kita memang haru biru

Aku yakin yang sakit cuma sementara

Tapi penghujungnya kita akan bahagia

Yang penting cuma kita dua-dua

Tak boleh berhenti dari mencuba.

Aku tahu kau pedih tapi aku pun sama

Hati kau terbakar, jiwa aku terseksa

Tapi Cuma satu benda je dalam dunia

Yang boleh buat kita pulih semula.

Tapi kau penakut.

Dan aku memang penakut
Mengakui cinta kepadamu
Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan
Bila bersamamu
Kau bukan milikku
Dan engkau pun tahu
Kau bukan milikku

Random Rant

I've been noticing more portrayals of domestic violence on the television lately. I hate violence against women. I hate guys who do it. I got sick after watching this one scene from Gemilang on TV3 where this under-aged kid was repeatedly molested by her stepdad. Even more sickening was Kemboja Putih's whole 'gang-raped by strangers in front of own husband' thing. Can't stomach it. I try to make an effort and keep my mom company when she watches her tv series, but I just walk away when things like that come on.

I feel like the issue is too real for me and I can't be comfortable around it. Some of the people closest to me has gone through it, and I've seen how it changes them. I don't think I'll ever be able to understand what they go through, but I know that it's awful.

Screw you if you hit ladies, bro. YOU'RE a fucking bitch.

If Only

Kesan bila The Poison masuk badan - Aku rosakkan lagu orang. Silakan.



G Bm
Pagi sampai malam, damansara ke shah alam.
Em C
Semua arah aku pandang asyik terbayang.
G Bm
Teringat balik waktu kita dalam kereta.
Em A
Pastu peluk lama-lama, seram bulu roma.
G Bm
Pelukan tu berhantu, langsung tak tipu.
Em C
Sampai aku buat lagu, sebab nak bagitau.
G Bm
Aku tak nak kau pergi jauh-jauh lagi.
Em A
Tak nak jadi macam dulu aku tak nak sakit lagi.

C Bm
So tolong, tolong jangan jual mahal dengan aku.
C Bm D
Aku takut aku tak larat dah nak tunggu.

G
Boleh tak kalau kau stay kali ni?
D
Kalau boleh aku nak kau janji.
B
Boleh tak kalau tak bergaduh lagi?
C
Oh if only!

G Bm
Aku pecah musnah hancur luluh sudah.
Em C
Dulu kau pergi, memang aku lemah.
G Bm
Aku dah elok sekarang. Aku belajar tabah.
Em A
Tapi still penasaran dengan engkau jugak.
G Bm
Tapi kali ni aku taknak terus terjun.
Em C
Sebab kalau kau tak sambut, teruk aku jatuh.
G Bm
Tolong la bagi signal, aku just nak tau.
Em A
Kalau aku hulur tangan, kau sambut tak aku?

The Poison

Dear Poison, i hate you.
Your venom has escalated to a new level,
and it has somehow found ways
of toying with space and time.
i feel like a small child when i'm near you,
and i stare and appreciate, amazed.
But you turn me into an emotional teen
complete with the brooding look
and dark get-up
when you turn me away.
And it feels like a turnover.
Even worse is The Poison
when it's applied slowly,
through a one-minute hug.
It turns me old,
well into my sunset,
i'm sure.
Because i kept on thinking,
"it's been too long, please don't leave again",
as if i've waited for 50 years,
like i'm that dude from that cholera-love-novel thingy,
through that one-minute hug.

It's Only A Joke

This is done over Nelly's Country Grammar. I love Nelly's first album, but I don't really listen to any of his stuff after his debut. Anyways, I don't rap loud because I was doing it at home while people were still awake and I had to keep the volume down. So, don't focus on the presentation, concentrate on the content. Am I making sense?



Wassap berasap baby aku naik lagi.
Dah datang ilham aku menjadi-jadi.
So what? Aku layan terus balut sampai pagi.
Mata rabak kimak pun aku tak reti-reti.
Engkau hulur tangan, pastu mintak peluk.
Tapi aku tak layan sebab perangai engkau teruk.
Aku bagi betis engkau mintak peha.
Tapi aku tak kisah sebab engkau memang loser.

So jangan rasa marah jangan rasa segan.
Bila dengan aku memang confirm kau kena bahan.
Sebab engkau lauk yang sedap dimakan.
Tiap-tiap hari tapau pun tak rasa bosan.
Sori. Terasa ke? Ko emo ke?
Aku bukan serius. Cuma melawak je.
Takkan kacau sikit pun kau nak merajuk.
Chill la bai. It's only a joke.

So meh sini aku nak ajar sikit.
Kalau dengan aku tak payah nak sensitif.
Tak payah cover, tak payah buat bising.
Kalau salah nanti, engkau jugak yang pening kan?
Apa kau pikir, semuanya merapu.
Pastu bajet betul, naik menyampah aku.
Gaya je lebih, muka tak tau malu.
Lepas kena sekolah terus datang merayu.

Baru tahu, langit dan bumi.
Tapi kau lagi teruk sebab engkau bawah lagi.
Tunggu siap lubang aku pergi gali.
Boleh tanam engkau dalam enam kaki, get it?

Lagu Ubi

Step 1: Find instrumental track, play and keep it on repeat.
Step 2: Feel the song, and start writing crap.
Step 3: Organize the crap.
Step 4: Record self crapping.
Step 5: Upload on Youtube.

Here's the first song I did, along with lyrics.



Wassap berasap yo aku rap lagi.
Buat kau rasa angau dari malam sampai pagi.
Tak payah ada dj, tak payah ada muzik.
Rap aku terbabow - janji ada beat sikit.
Kalau beat tak ada, aku buat selamba.
Pasang lagu dekat utube kalau boleh ikut aje.
Takkan risau takkan brenti kalau internet takde.
Sebab rhyme aku hebat - buat engkau ternganga.
Ayat aku mengalir sampai kau meleleh.
Mana boleh bagi lebih bagi sikit-sikit sudey.
Ayat aku jangan curi jangan cuba jangan berani.
Silap-silap lidah engkau yang jadi terbelit nanti.
Ukur baju di badan sendiri, kalau dah kecik pandai-pandai la lari.
Sedar sikit siapa diri, tolong jangan berlagak kalau kau masih rookie.
Diam-diam ubi berisi, biarpun mati aku takkan berhenti.
Diam-diam ubi berisi, buat apa lari kalau belum puas lagi.

Mana kau pegi, aku tak habis lagi.
Ini lagu mixtape bukannya lagu mainstream.
Tak payah ada chorus, tak payah orang nyanyi.
Cuma suara aku keeping u company.
Gaya aku tak berubah walaupun mic depan mata.
Flow aku natural, flow engkau apa ada.
Pergi mampus cakap orang aku peduli apa.
Korang nak buat bising aku diam-diam aje.
Bila music masuk, kepala kau angguk.
Kita bagi pusing sampai kau pening.
Kita bagi belit sampai kau naik.
Kita bagi layan sampai kau pengsan.
Diam-diam ubi berisi, biarpun mati aku takkan berhenti.
Diam-diam ubi berisi, buat apa lari kalau belum puas lagi.

If you notice, there's no real direction in the song. It's basically like a pointless cerita. I'm just playing around with words here, so don't hate. Will post lyrics to my other songs in the future. Keep on checking out my blog, please? lol